Now A Man of Somewhat Experience

Five years back, I gave my name a Tag line.

On a Mission to Become the Most Experienced Man!

Now, I am truly feeling this a bit. I say to myself nowadays, that the man who was 5 years back wasn't an experienced man. All of that pain, all of that disaster, all of that mental struggle that I went through and still going through is maybe because of taking that inexperienced older self to this a somewhat experienced present self. 

I am not saying that I went through a lot of struggle, a lot of shit. But the things went through weren't that normal. All of my suffering, whether it was internal or external made me something, that fucking EXPERIENCED MAN. 

It is true I guess that Pain transforms a man. And I think, I saw in myself too. Also, the way I observed things in the past 3 months, it was useful. It was necessary. 

I experienced almost every aspect of life from relationships to money to fame to love to even extended to the negative aspects such as disrespect, cheats, lust, people getting change by time and so on and so forth. Mostly, I was surrounded by people. 

And here, I wanna confess also that I made mistakes too, mistakes around all of those aspects. Saw and observed myself completely changing. Indulging myself into distractions and alcohol. Ego did came, just to protect myself. All of this observation took time. Late nights, cries, observations, burning my dairies(Journals) to finish off my past that I used to write off in those pages. I did a lot. Drinking late nights all alone. Burning money of my parents day by day. And now here I am, A man of somewhat experience. 

Yes, a man of experience. And that's it for now. I don't wanna write too much for this one. Maybe I will write more on this because the phase isn't over yet. Pain hasn't stopped, or maybe a mindset shift is needed. But I am thinking of writing these things a little frequently just to keep myself on track and original. 

That's it for now. Take Care:)